Learning to Enjoy Being "Single"

God has been working in me for many years on this. I have always chosen not to listen, not to understand, and not to embrace my “singleness”. I can say today that I have finally WOKE UP! God was finally able to break through my thick skull and my thick flesh.

The breakthrough came to me last week as I was still home with my recovery. (I tell you I have had lots of time to think, pray, and dig deep in my soul! Thank GOD!) Well, I realized that I have always thought that I would be happy ‘when’ I have a loving husband by my side and in the meantime I would just sit waiting and riding through life. I finally received the slap upside my head that I needed! My thinking was SO WRONG!! How unfair to myself, my son, my family, and everyone around me that I consider myself unhappy or just riding by life until I have a husband. I must enjoy my journey through every season of my life. I need to enjoy my singlehood while it exists!! There are reasons why God has me single at this time in my life. There are purposes in life that I must fulfill before I am married again to that great husband that God has in line for me. I must learn to love myself for who I am – ALONE!

Loneliness has been the toughest to get through while being single. No one to share my heart with, no one to share my thoughts of the day with, no one to do life with… I do not feel this loneliness anymore. The past few weeks I have been alone (physically). I have been at home recovering from the surgery, so you would think “time to feel loneliness”! WELL NO WAY! I have never felt so much company, so much love, so much companionship, so much bonding time… I am blown away with happiness. GOD WAS THERE. I finally got the message. I finally understand. All I need is God’s love. If you allow God into your life, into your heart, He will transform you and fill your heart up with all the love you need and you will NOT feel empty anymore!

I am renewed. I feel so blessed, filled with joy and happiness. I am enjoying my journey as a single woman that is trying to fulfill God’s purpose for my life.

Thank you dear Lord for being my strength, my redeemer, my strong tower… Thank you for loving me so, even with all the mistakes I have made. Thank you for your forgiveness. Thank you for never giving up on me because you don’t give up on anyone! Thank you for opening up the eyes of my heart to experience and embrace your unconditional love that fills my heart with all the joy, peace, and happiness I need during this season of my life. In Jesus’ name. Amen!